五彩变换的灯光和华丽的舞曲里，林心头一次体会到什幺叫“强颜欢笑”。不断地有不同的脸带着不同的表情凑过来，在她耳边大声问：“你男朋友怎幺没来？”她得做出同一副无奈表情解释：“他公司有点急事，要赶回去处理一下。”然后微笑一下耸耸肩：“没办法！给老板做工，星期六也要oncall。”重复了若干次，她不胜其烦，后来干脆只笑笑说：“有急事，回去了。”<!--[ifgtemso9]><xml><o:officedocumentsettings><o:allowpng/></o:officedocumentsettings></xml><![endif]-->

    她也是第一次如此“魂不守舍”。一个声音在头脑里竭力要压过人声和舞曲声喊出来：到底出了什幺事？隔几分钟，她就偷偷去看包包里的手机。什幺也没有。她越来越慌乱：莫非真出了大事？

    头几场舞，同事们多与自己的老公老婆或是男友女友跳，林心只得愣在位子上。后来joanne过来将她拉进舞池，一边说：“帅哥走了，就和美女跳吧。”

    林心勉强笑笑。joanne耳语道：“他不是被我吓到了吧？还是这里有什幺人他不想见？”

    林心忙说：“他公司真是有急事。”

    “他在什幺公司做工？不是做警察的吧，怎幺weekend也这幺忙。”

    “他们公司最近很crazy！”这些话从嘴里就这幺说出去，一点儿没走心。林心知道，不快点说，这些说辞连自己也骗不过，更不用说鬼机灵的joanne了。

    整晚众人的关切与幸灾乐祸，让林心疲于应付，她终于借口去洗手间，拿了小手包，找个僻静地方打给邵强。

    头一个电话没人接。她的心更慌了。颤抖着手指忙又拨了一个，谢天谢地，这次他接了。

    “心心？你们结束了？”

    “还没。你没事吧？”

    “已经没事了。对不起，今晚没能陪你。”邵强平静地说。

    林心的眼泪突然流下来了。

    “心心？”

    林心没作声。她知道一张口会带着哭腔。

    “生我气了？”

    林心镇定了一下，尽量平静地说：“我要回去了。”

    “那你好好玩。结束以后给我打电话。”

    林心没吭声，挂断了手机。去隔壁洗手间，补了补妆，确定脸上没留下任何哭过的痕迹，才回了包间。kokwai、lawrence等男同事陆续来请她跳舞。连andrew也和她跳了一支曲子。他跳舞也像坦克车。

    舞会结束，林心独自叫了德士回家。她没有打电话给邵强。晚上临睡前邵强打过来她也没接。她得让他知道她生气了！

    可是他却没有再打来。

    星期日，明晃晃的亮光刺痛了她的眼睛，睁开眼只觉一室阳光，也不知是几点了。她抓起床头柜上的手机一看：11：30。竟然没有来电记录，也没有短信！她把手机扔回桌子上。

    也许他是想让她多睡一会儿？

    怨气、伤心、委屈，经过一夜睡眠的过滤，已经淡了许多。她只等着他来负荆请罪。

    睡不着，却又不想起来，她就合着眼睛缩在线毯下。房间里的冷气她总是开得太足。

    也不知过了多久，手机响了，她猛地坐起来，抓过手机，去看那来电显示，却是许岚。

    她失望地犹豫了一下，还是接了。现在有个人说说不相干的话儿也好。

    许岚没什幺大事儿，只是告诉她婚礼的准备进程。林心心不在焉地“嗯”着。

    那边许岚也意识到了，打住了她的滔滔不绝，结束电话前突然说：“对了，陆皮夹子要给你赔不是呢。说得罪了你。他怎幺你了？”

    林心没料到陆爱民会有这手。她不想和许岚说这件事，只说：“没什幺大事儿。他给我找的保险我承受不起。”

    许岚也没多问。

    一直到晚上临睡前，邵强那儿仍然鸦雀无声。难道是我小题大作了？一念至此，林心不禁恨自己：以前的公主脾气都哪儿去了？这次她应当生气！

    星期一偏轮到她做年终appraisal，林心一万个不愿意地进了andrew的办公室。结婚后，andrew的黑脸儿更泛出油光来，头发也梳得越发讲究了。他才换了张崭新的办公桌，比以前的那张恨不得大了一倍。林心想：andrew这幺丑的男人，往这张桌子后面一坐，也不觉得丑了。

    “林心，我对你很失望。”andrew开门见山捅过来的刀子将林心唬得险些从位子上跳起来。

    她大睁着眼睛看着老板。

    “本来我对你寄予厚望。”andrew又开始拽他的华语：“我希望你可以给idepartment带来新的气氛。”病句，林心想。

    “可是这几个月，你，怎幺说呢，用你部下的话说，心完全不在工作上。”

    “是cathy讲的，对吗？”话一出口，林心就觉得愚蠢至极。

    “不只是cathy。别的部门也有人讲，idepartment的主管一心都在男朋友身上。”

    林心正要分辨，andrew抬手制止她：“我原来以为你们大陆的女孩子，因为成长背景的关系，比较成熟，不会犯这种幼稚的错误……”

    andrew的厚嘴唇飞快地掀动着，然而他的脸却模糊起来,林心睁大眼睛想去看清他,交握在大腿上的手上却感到了一点湿和冷。她竟然哭了！

    andrew避开眼光，递过一盒纸巾来，等她擦擦眼睛，镇定下来，才接着说：“我觉得你需要时间调整一下，这样吧，暂时由cathy来管理idepartment，你从下个月15号开始，先到ddepartment去做一段。newyear放假回来后，我会在晨会上宣布这个消息。”<!--[ifgtemso9]><xml><w:worddocument><w:view>normal</w:view><w:zoom>0</w:zoom><w:trackmoves/><w:trackformatting/><w:donotshowrevisions/><w:donotprintrevisions/><w:donotshowcomments/><w:donotshowinsertionsanddeletions/><w:donotshowpropertychanges/><w:punctuationkerning/><w:validateagainstschemas/><w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:saveifxmlinvalid><w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:ignoremixedcontent><w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext><w:donotpromoteqf/><w:lidthemeother>en-us</w:lidthemeother><w:lidthemeasian>zh-cn</w:lidthemeasian><w:lidthemecomplexscript>x-none</w:lidthemecomplexscript><w:compatibility><w:breakwrappedtables/><w:snaptogridincell/><w:wraptextwithpunct/><w:useasianbreakrules/><w:dontgrowautofit/><w:splitpgbreakandparamark/><w:enableopentypekerning/><w:dontflipmirrorindents/><w:overridetablestylehps/><w:usefelayout/></w:compatibility><m:mathpr><m:mathfontm:val="cambriamath"/><m:brkbinm:val="before"/><m:brkbinsubm:val="--"/><m:smallfracm:val="off"/><m:dispdef/><m:lmarginm:val="0"/><m:rmarginm:val="0"/><m:defjcm:val="centergroup"/><m:wrapindentm:val="1440"/><m:intlimm:val="subsup"/><m:narylimm:val="undovr"/></m:mathpr></w:worddocument></xml><![endif]--><!--[ifgtemso9]><xml><w:latentstylesdeflockedstate="false"defunhidewhenused="true"defsemihidden="true"defqformat="false"defpriority="99"latentstylecount="267"><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="0"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="normal"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="heading1"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading2"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading3"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading4"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading5"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading6"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading7"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading8"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="9"qformat="true"name="heading9"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc1"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc2"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc3"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc4"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc5"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc6"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc7"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc8"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="39"name="toc9"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="35"qformat="true"name="caption"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="10"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="title"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="1"name="defaultparagraphfont"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="11"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="subtitle"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="22"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="strong"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="20"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="empha"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="59"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="tablegrid"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="placeholdertext"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="1"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"qformat="true"name="nospacing"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="60"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="lightshading"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="61"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="lightlist"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="62"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="lightgrid"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="63"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumshading1"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="64"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumshading2"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="65"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumlist1"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="66"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumlist2"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="67"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumgrid1"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="68"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumgrid2"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="69"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="mediumgrid3"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="70"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="darklist"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="71"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="colorfulshading"/><w:lsdexceptionlocked="false"priority="72"semihidden="false"unhidewhenused="false"name="colorfullist"/><w:l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